My recovery through space and time

I have not been in any sort of recovery at all for weeks now.  I have been utter shit.  It is time to get serious again.  My body is crying out for attention.  It is not happy with me.  Starting now I am going to be nice to it again. 

Today I am all smiles.  I have had my breakfast, drank lots of tea, did some yoga.  I made my porridge this morning with almond milk instead of soya milk, and it was EVEN TASTIER!!  I had it with cinnamon today, and I had some soya yoghurt and raspberries aswell.  A very delicious and successful breakfast one might say!  I am on day five, and going strong.  I was a bit touch and go last night, I thought I had eaten too much, I hadn’t really, it was just more than I wanted too, and thought about purging, but I didn’t.  I am proud.  At the moment I am just wandering the archives of the internet for something delicious to make for lunch.  I am thinking garlic mushrooms, grilled tofu on a bed of wilted spinach.  YUM!  Oh, now I am really excited.  Best thing about recovery is cooking and food.  It’s so exciting!  And because I was a vegan for two years previously, I can pretty much veganise anything, so I don’t worry about that much.  I am really happy I decided to come back to my vegan lifestyle, I feel so much better about myself already.  When I stopped being a vegan, I went against all my morals, and everything I believed in.  No wonder after that happened it was when my ED was at it’s worst, I felt awful about myself.  

My aims for this month are to do yoga everyday, even if it just the sun salutation, eat enough, but not too much everyday, and try really hard with my recovery.  I really would love it to be a B/P free month, I am going to try my very very bestest!!  And no alcohol.  Until I learn to not use alcohol as a crutch when I am depressed, and learn to not to drink until I pass out, I cannot be trusted to drink!  Simple as that.  I am also going to be a slave to my sister as she is getting married and dragging me around numerous shops, venues and fairs.  And I’m going to get a job.  Infact, today I must write my CV as I only have it in Italian, and need it in English!  Wish me luck guys!  

I hope everyone is feeling as positive about March as I am.  If not I will send you happy vibes!   

Bulimia is seriously kicking my arse.  I wish someone could help me.  I wish I could help myself.  Words of inspiration would be greatly appreciated right now.  I want to get back on track, I need to.